When XOXO co-founder Andy Mcmillan
initially reached out to me to potentially create a mural for XOXO, I was thrilled. The opportunity came about at a time, however, when I had just
undergone a major life change: the break-up. You know that stage right afterwards, when it's as brutally fresh and stinging as it'll ever be? Devastating, dark. Disbelieving, numb and disconnected. That's where I was.
So, creating this mural was an act of healing for me. I had all this dark shit swirling inside: sadness, rage, grief. And I needed to (healthily) express it to move forward. As Freud said: "Unexpressed emotions never die. They are buried alive and come forth later in uglier ways."
Was it real? Was all in my head?
Would it fade, like it was nothing?
Would this come to pass?
Would I ever find love again?
Would he forget me?